When the pain is more than I can bear
When the looks and stairs cut and tear
You are there.
When the weight is heavier than I can hold
And non of my plans seem to unfold
You are there.
When I run so far
You are still there.
When I finally let go
You are there.
Even when I don’t care
You are there.
In the hurt and pain and despair
You are there.
In the love and the peace and the joy
You are there…
You are always there!
Crash and burn and up again.
Up and down and up and down.
Stagnant and motionless,
Yet everything but left for dead.
Beeping and buzzing and blurs of love.
Memories blocked and pain suppressed.
Doctors and nurses and family and friends.
Joking and laughter, healing and hurt.
Expectations dropped and true matters found.
New friendships made and old ones inflamed.
Up and down and up and down.
Drugs gone dry and filled again.
Improvements and pain, heartache and rain.
Thunder to bring light.
Caring and giving, sacrifice and time.
Wonder and dreams for things unseen.
Crying and comfort, hope and despair.
New things come as old are taken.
Lives changed and futures remolded.
Up and down and up and down.
Strength and courage remain.
Grab on tight and don’t let go.
Strength and courage shall remain.
I let go and He grabs a hold.
Crash and burn and UP AGAIN.
Alone
11 May 2009
Who of us does not feel alone in a crowded room?
All by ourselves though surrounded by love?
Clouded by the lies that flood our heads.
Crying out in silence and no one hears.
The lies come louder…
You are alone!
No one cares!
You have no friends!
YOU ARE ALONE!!!
What can silence lies but truth?
The truth that not one of us is alone.
That when we reach out to one another in our hurt,
A wound can heal a wound.
The truth that none of us are alone!
Open your eyes and look around.
See with new eyes that no one reaches out to you
Because they are hurting too!
In your loneliness and pain reach out to the ones you once despised
For not reaching out to you.
Love in your pain and see what happens.
Love
1 May 2009
The world says love lifts us up where we belong.
It says love is a many splendid things.
They constantly tell us about love,
But what do they show us about love?
Is love a one night stand?
Is love someone who sings outside your window in the rain?
Is love something that burns bright for a bit and then fizzles away?
What is it?
Does it have to be fought for?
Is it given freely?
Does someone out there really “complete me”?
We have been shown that love can fade.
Love can be found in a bottle.
It is a feeling.
It has little value and is easily replaced.
Love is a man or a woman.
Love is sex.
Love is physical.
Somewhere along the way someone got it wrong!
What is the truth?
What is Love?
The truth is without love we are nothing.
Love suffers and does not give up.
Love does not envy.
Love does not parade itself.
Love is not puffed up.
Love does not behave rudely.
It does not seek its own.
It is not provoked.
Love thinks no evil.
Love does not rejoice in iniquities, but in the truth.
Love bears all things,
Believes all things,
Hopes all things,
Endures all things!
Love never fails.
Who I Trust
10 April 2009
It is You who I trust.
I lean on no other,
For when I do I fall.
It is You who I trust.
Not my money,
Which quickly fades away.
It is You who I trust.
Not the sun in the sky,
Which clouds cover and hide.
It is You who I trust.
Not the car that I drive,
Which can putter and die.
It is You who I trust.
Not the food on my plate,
Which is eaten and gone.
It is You who I trust.
Not a song in my ear,
Which comforts and ends.
For what are these things but
Nothing without you?
Hide and Seek
30 April
1-2-3 here I come!
Daddy, daddy where are you?
My child I am everywhere
I am in the clouds
And in the breeze.
I am in the light
And in the dark.
I am in the grass
And in the sea.
Keep looking and you will find me.
When you find me it is my turn to search for you.
Falling
30 April
A pit?
A cave?
A rabbit hole?
Falling, falling, falling.
Not knowing up from down,
Surrounded by the absence of light.
Falling, falling, falling
Is there a bottom?
Is there an end?
Surly I will sprain an ankle
Or break a limb if the end is found.
Floating, floating, floating down
Into an abyss.
All that is known is that it is unknown.
No sky, no ground, no wind, no light.
What time is it?
What day is it?
What year is it?
Falling, falling, falling
Falling into the unknown.
Holding Back
2 April 2009
What are the things I can not see?
The things that hold me back?
Show me the dark places hiding in my soul,
The hidden closets where secrets like to go.
Expose them with gentleness and wash them away.
Bring light to the darkness in my heart.
Bring light oh Lord and make me clean!
Response:
I adore you my child! I am here for you. I have already washed you clean with the blood of my son! Live in that freedom of being clean. You have been reborn and made new! Live in the freedom you already have!!! Your closets have already been opened and cleaned. I have already washed you and made you pure! You were born into me not into sin! Live in me not the bondage of a lie!
Your Daddy
Let him Go
31 March 2009
Let Him go my child,
Let Him go.
I gave him to you for a little while
To teach you who I am.
Let Him go little child,
Let Him go.
You have learned what I wanted him to teach you,
Now it is my turn to step in.
Let him go little child,
Let him go.
You have grown
And many lessons have you learned.
Let him go my daughter,
Let him go.
Trust in me now,
Learn from my teachings.
Let him go my daughter,
I am here!
Small Voice
31 March 2009
I know you hear me but are you listening?
You ask me questions but seldom do you listen to my answers.
I would like to share my life with you but I’m not sure how.
How can you know who I am if the words I say are lost among your thoughts?
Am I speaking to softly?
I’m sure that can not be the case.
I will keep trying to answer you but I don’t know how long I can talk to you while your hands are over your ears.
I learn that intimacy comes with being fully known by another and finding significance in that relationship.
I want you to fully know me but I need you to take your hands off your ears and listen.
I am hear wanting to be fully known, are you ready to listen to my small voice?
